This Too Shall Pass

I think one of the most depressing things to me is trying on maternity clothes when I am 7 1/2 months pregnant. Sean called me before lunch today and told me to get ready so I can go get some warm maternity clothes. I have been wanting to do this for a while and it is hard when I have Jaiden with me without feeling so rushed. So I finished getting ready, he came home and played with Jaiden while I went out for a few hours. As I cruised the clothes at Motherhood Maternity (which I think are WAY too expensive by the way) I thought, wow, that is really cute. I grabbed a few tops and jackets here and there. I was looking for warm winter clothes since I have NONE that fit this bubble body belly of mine. As I made my way to the dressing room I was trying to prepare myself for the hideousness of what was about to happen. There inside the dressing room hung the dreaded dressing room mirror with the horrible lighting. One would think they would have mirrors and lights that made you look great and glamorous, but instead it's just a regular long mirror with the dim lighting that makes everything horrid. There I was, in the room trying on what I once thought was a cute outfit. Well, no longer did I think this after putting it on. The belly on this body can't make anything look remotely attractive. It's like a giant watermelon stuffed under there. I ended up with two warm sweaters, a long sleeved shirt, and a black skirt that I have been desperately needing. Not bad for feeling to down.

Upon my return home I was feeling a little down but glad I had a few things to keep me warm. Sean greeted me at the door with love knowing I was feeling the way I did. He got all excited to see what I got and wanted a fashion show. All in all, no matter how bad I feel or how blah I feel, Sean always makes me feel great. He is so uplifting and always tries so hard to tell me how lucky he is to have me and how beautiful he thinks I am.

When I think about trying on clothes I cringe anyways. But when I am pregnant I cringe all the more. But when it comes down to it, I am thankful. I am thankful I have this constantly moving little girl growing inside of me. I am thankful I am able to see and feel this baby grow. I am thankful and so lucky to love her so much more than she will ever know and not even have met her in person yet. I am thankful for my ever growing baby belly that stretches more then I ever knew it could. I love to feel her hiccup, kick, punch, jab, and whatever else she is doing in there. After having Jaiden and seeing her grow and all that my body went through, it is all worth it. I am the luckiest, happiest, beautiful big belly pregnant girl around. I am blessed to be pregnant and will try my hardest to cherish every moment. I don't mean to complain, it's just one of those moments that will quickly pass soon enough. I need to work on opening my eyes and seeing the beauty that is me. Me, my belly, and I.